W.O.W. #2- Week 3-I knew this was coming, but still not prepared

Well the 3rd week of wow is complete, and I came in UP 2.5 pounds. This is the first time that this has happened for me since the middle of July and I'll be honest...I was devastated. I knew that this WOW was going to be harder, and that the weight was going to come off slower, but UP....UP really?! I have been doing a lot of reflection the last few days about myself and my pitfalls and the pros and cons of the Zone diet. It isn't a lifestyle for me, I am going to incorporate some of its guidelines but I am going back to sparkpeople for tracking, and calorie counting. It should be similar, but for me it just isn't. I have deducted that it has something to do with me mentally because I have been on every fad diet known to man, and despite this not being one mentally I can't get over it feeling like one.

This last weekend was a prime example because John and I had the day off to spend together, we went shopping and just hung out. But I didn't feel like there was anything for me to eat because I was so exhausted that I just couldn't think. I went to McDonalds and tried to do what the Zone says about getting the two hamburger patties and ditching the top of the bun...but I felt ridiculous. And then by the end of the day I was starving and talked myself into a piece of pizza...really?! Then Sunday I spent the day pretty much beating myself up for all my bad choices on Saturday, which was about as productive as trying to get the snow off my driveway in January. But now looking back, the zone just brought to life many of the obstacles that stopped me from weight loss for so long...I can eat what I like, just in moderation. There are better choices to make sometimes, but adding a salad to that hamburger and adding a pile of green beans to that piece of pizza would have been better.

I will continue to eat more protein than I did in my first WOW but 78 grams a day is just too much because I'm not doing enough strength training to need all of that right now. Also, I understand the importance of good carbs over bad carbs. I know that you want to stay in the zone and it doesn't always happen, but this diet just made me fall into many of my old habits like feeling like I was sneaking food if I had a potato or feeling guilty because I wanted spaghetti. Its a great diet...but for me it is not my way of "getting my healthy on" its my way of having all my perfectionist tendencies come to life and to lose confidence in being able to reach my goals.

Wow, that was a lot longer than I was anticipating, but after deciding that Monday morning, here it is Wednesday already and I am down that two measly pounds but I have a sense of freedom that I had before. I'm not where I want to be in WOW, but I'm feeling like I am back on the right track.