I have issues.

With food, that is. But I already knew that.

It's time to confess... I am EXTREMELY disappointed in myself and I feel like I won't be able to let it go until I just write it all down and officially get over it.

The last 2 days have been a complete disaster, both with exercise and eating. I mean DISASTER. I have just been craving sweets and saltys, and I've given in more than I would like to admit. I mean king sized candy bars, doughnuts galore, hamburgers and fries (x2), gigantic breakfast burritos, hot dogs, cookie dough... you name it. And I have no excuses so I'm not even going to go there.

As far as exercising, I decided after my jog on Saturday to take a break from jogging for now because I have what seems to be a pulled muscle in my thigh that is just not going away. It's actually really weird, half the time it feels like a pinched nerve, half the time it feels like its a pulled muscle, and when it first happened it felt like it was in my hip socket. It happened when I was wearing those horrible awful shoes, and it seems like I just hurt it all over again each time I go jogging. I would just push through the pain and get over it but I've decided that I really need to let it heal before it becomes something worse. And I had every intention of doing the elliptical or biking in place of jogging, but I just haven't done it. End of story.

Anyway, today I am back on track with my eating, and planning a 60 minute bike ride this evening. I'm actually really looking forward to it because it's been a while since I have ridden. I'm also looking forward to the over all good feeling that I get from exercise, because my choices the past few days have really had a negative effect on my overall outlook. It's amazing how the things you eat, and lack of exercise effect your entire life.

Well now that I have, in a way, made my confession, I feel like I am over this and officially moving on. I'm so done feeling icky. I have reason to believe i've been craving like mad due to PMS but I'm not using that as an excuse. I know I'm stronger than that and I'm happy to be done with it.

Have a great day everyone! I'm feeling better already.

Kickboxing rocks

So my new mantra is kickboxing. I started on Monday morning and it is soooo awesome!! I burned 650 cals the first day and 680 this morning. It isn't for the faint of heart and I sweat more than I ever have doing anything in my whole life. My only problem is that I have to use someone elses gloves right now till mine get in....and they stink, like the kind of stink that could make you vomit with enough exposure.

I am feeling revitalized by my choice to start an organized class. It took all the guess work out of working out out of my hands. Honestly, that is just exactly what needed to happen. I had the best intentions in the world about making myself workout at home etc....but the bottem line is that I wasn't and if I was I dogged it through most of it.

I met a friend at this class and she said something and provided me with something that a workout video can't do....she said "Hey Steph...See you Friday?" and I said "For Sure". So if nothing else does, that will get me out of bed Friday morning. I am back on the winning side and I can't wait till Friday and to see what body is going to do with this new workout to tackle.

The Weekend of Trials

This weekend has been less than spectacular but I did learn some very important lessons...pretty much straight from the mouth of Jillian Michaels. First, Friday night was great I came home early from school and got my work out in before I went to my little cousins basketball tournament. Saturday however, was something much different. We, my hubby and I, when we realized his parents were in the driveway-so the day just started off in a hurry, which drives me insane. Then we went to town with them, and we stop for lunch...I have made all my goals and desires clear with my entire family, but everyone decides on CULVERS...so I am actually fearful of a place like this because I have CHOSEN to eliminate these types of places from my life, but there was a time when I loved this kind of food. I get to the menu and well there wasn't really any good choices that I could see in a hurry, so I tried a less evil one and ordered a sourdough sandwich. After eating there I got home I felt disgusting and remembered all the reasons that that is just not going to be a part of me and john's life ever again.

The reason this comes back to Jillian is because she talks in one of her podcasts about when you spend time with the people that you love and they make poor eating choices that you need to try and spend time with them doing things other than eating. I love his mom and dad so much and I catch myself worrying about so many things that are completely out of my control. It is the power of free will, and I pray for them every night and I try to get them to want change but I can just love them with my whole heart and that is all that I can do right now.

Sunday has been a huge victory because I got up this morning and poached two eggs on whole wheat toast, then had a 6" sub for lunch,and am making this amazing pot roast recipe that I will post tomorrow!! Plus I did Jillian Michaels Frontside and burned 520 calories, then decided to do her kickboxing dvd and burned 274 more yahoo!!